this feeling this coming back. i can’t help but feel this why. not sure why, but it’s all from my past i know that for sure. my past has emotionally and mentally fucked me up. im not happy. im very unhappy. im hurting inside and i have no where to run or to hide. that monster inside my head is once again speaking telling me to do bad things. i don’t know if i can control. it im scared. scared of this sadness and depression, that it’ll never go away.